Hi-

Yesterday/last night I was supposed to go some place w/ my mom & my Aunt..nothing fancy..like a fair. I washed my hair and did it, saw the grey strands, became extremely anxious...started to panic....FELT extremely ugly ( I am not) and could not go. I was paralyzed.

Earlier in the day, my mom & I were walking the dog & we met some of her friends whom would be there...one recently had an operation & I talked to her about it. Afterwards my mom said "I was proud of you"...me:"For What?" mom:"Well they were impressed as you sounded as if you knew what you were talking about.". WTH??? I said to her "well I have only been an operating room nurse for 18 years, if I did NOT know what was going on, there would be a HUGE problem."

I know it sounded like a compliment...it was not..it was a back handed insult. SO I was PO'd. I know she is embarrassed that I have never been married and never had any children and I am mentally ill. She thinks I am an idiot.

Sorry for the rant...but she triggers me w/ her insulting comments.