I see a lot of posts here asking "is this because of bipolar?" Usually it is some quirky behavior that is not generally recognized as a symptom of bipolar.
I have a theory on that. I think that after we receive our diagnosis, we are hypersensitive to our behavior. Every day that we are baseline, we wonder whether we are headed up or headed down. A lot of times, we are anxious about it. We might experience an emotion tied to something that has never produced one like it before. We might find ourselves behaving in some way that we never noticed before. Sometimes it is actually because of a side effect of our medication. Sometimes it is something we have always done but never noticed before we were diagnosed. Whatever the behavior, we find that we can't trust our emotions and actions any more, even though they might have nothing to do with bipolar.
What do you think?
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