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Originally Posted by Skittles56
I see a lot of posts here asking "is this because of bipolar?" Usually it is some quirky behavior that is not generally recognized as a symptom of bipolar.
I have a theory on that. I think that after we receive our diagnosis, we are hypersensitive to our behavior. Every day that we are baseline, we wonder whether we are headed up or headed down. A lot of times, we are anxious about it. We might experience an emotion tied to something that has never produced one like it before. We might find ourselves behaving in some way that we never noticed before. Sometimes it is actually because of a side effect of our medication. Sometimes it is something we have always done but never noticed before we were diagnosed. Whatever the behavior, we find that we can't trust our emotions and actions any more, even though they might have nothing to do with bipolar.
What do you think?
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I think a lot!
a very deeply insightful consideration
these exact things help me to see the other rooms in my insane house because you have busted the door down..
yes we face losing our "identity"
we can become completely separated from who?...where? what?
I am suddenly an expression of psychotic behaviours
I am simply a vessel designed to transfer an abominable dysfunction onto the world
I have no name
now I believe I am held hostage from something inside me and captured and personally impotent...
but it is not true none of it...this condition is very real and it is very destructive and after some time of trying to destroy us after it has exhausted it's emotional violence...
we might discover that all the fighting was unnecessary because this illness is my friend if I accept it and don't hate myself!
if I hate myself bipolar sick ...the condition will fight me
it won't stop either..it will try to kill me
I am not sick....I am me you are you we are we
it's a different one....but this is our experience
I loved your post