You aren't alone in that for sure. Right now I am trying to get up the courage to tell someone about it so I don't have to go through it alone. Do you have a T? Maybe you should tell them about this so they can help you work through it. It's funny how the mind can latch onto something and totally distort it. For me calling myself out on it helps, just to realize that what my mind is telling me isn't the truth allows me to push through thoughts I'm having. Can't believe everything you think!