.......... *sigh*

I want to use. I'm having a really bad ADD day. I took a pill this morning.. but I don't think it worked. I don't want to do my work. I just don't. I want to go for a walk instead. And I think I might. Because.. walking is awesome. But I hid my weed out in the field. I'm going to want to smoke. AND I'M GOING TO. Because this is my life!

Right? right!

Except that could be like my weird way of denial.. or.. something. I don't think I'm smoking to cope. I think I'm smoking as a way of getting out of boredom. Even though I'm not bored. ***** it. I don't know what I am.