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Originally Posted by Skittles56
I see a lot of posts here asking "is this because of bipolar?" Usually it is some quirky behavior that is not generally recognized as a symptom of bipolar.
I have a theory on that. I think that after we receive our diagnosis, we are hypersensitive to our behavior. Every day that we are baseline, we wonder whether we are headed up or headed down. A lot of times, we are anxious about it. We might experience an emotion tied to something that has never produced one like it before. We might find ourselves behaving in some way that we never noticed before. Sometimes it is actually because of a side effect of our medication. Sometimes it is something we have always done but never noticed before we were diagnosed. Whatever the behavior, we find that we can't trust our emotions and actions any more, even though they might have nothing to do with bipolar.
What do you think?
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I can agree to this, and have actually been feeling the "hypersensitivity" especially after being diagnosed. I'm also generally very introspective, I watch my actions and reflect on thoughts and feelings most parts of my day. So this personality trait paired with normal reactions to being diagnosed lead to almost an obsession over myself and my being.
It's hard to separate it sometimes, to know what is part of who we have been and what is attributed by the disorder. I've been reading up endlessly on everything bipolar, from memoirs to forum threads to psychological studies and neurological aspects... and part of it is because it can be quite confusing, and I hate being confused. And, as far as personal experience goes as well as taking from other people's experiences, all of this is especially confusing during the first few (or several) months of being diagnosed.
In the end, it's always good to look into who we are, to know who that person is, separate from any disorder. It's very tricky, but given time, it can free us from a lot of self-doubt.
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