could he be seeking attention from you right now? Do you really think he is serious? I don't think he's seeking attention, given my current mood calling attention to yourself is a risky and vaguely dangerous endeavor. He was talking about this before his surgery. Waking the other is generally is only used in situations that the person is scared. Whether it's a messed up dream, paranoia, psychosis, anxiety or SUI intentions. I do believe he was scared last night whether it was SUI related or anxiety about possible mood shift I don't know. I don't think he would know, either.

I know I've felt this way but it was in a hypo-manic state.

because they know what's ahead... they know that the depression or a manic episode is not too far from sight so they want to end things when it's still "good". I've felt a bit of this, where it's the anxiousness of the next coming episode can make me not want to live through it. <--- This is what I think it is.

One of the biggest problem's are he got surgery less than a week ago and still has the drain in until the end of this week. So it makes it difficult for him to sit, lay down, or walk and I have to clean and bandage it 3x a day. I'm sure that's getting to him. Unfortunately if he goes inpatient the psych hospital is a separate hospital then our med hospitals. I don't trust it to get infected if he's there and because it's right near his spine I don't want to risk that.