Sometimes I just want to stop my meds so I can get angry and really explode on someone. I hate this. I'm angry, but can't get it out. I just hate it.

I know I need to stand up for myself, and I try to stay rational, but being rational is not working. I really think that an explosion would basically say don't f w/ me.

I hate my roommate. All he ever does is think about himself. He's bringing his daughter here, knowing I don't want her here. Every time she is over here, the cops come. I don't want the cops at my house. Oh, the last time, he swore up and down she would never come back over here. That it wasn't fair to me to have to deal w/ all the b/s. Obviously he has no word. I don't want her here. She steals and takes things that aren't hers.

I know, I need to move w/ all this chaos. But I can't afford it. I'm barely stable as it is. And this added stress is not going to help any.

i'm going to go talk to my landlord tomorrow morning before I go to work, and see if he can kick him out, or at least tell him that the lease, she can't be here.

I'm so pissed. I don't like this feeling. It sucks so bad. I like be the fun loving guy that everybody thinks I am. I enjoy just relaxing, but I just can't handle the stress.

I'm sorry to you guys for dumping on you like this, but I just need to get it out. God, my thoughts are all over the place right now. Just need to slow down a little bit. I know I'm not doing myself any good, but I'm to the point I'm just ready to say screw it.