Hello all,

I was diagnosed with depression a couple of years ago which reared its head after my wedding. I wasn't sad about the marriage process, but when it was all over I just felt empty and looked forward to nothing like I normally would. And I am a male which makes this even stranger. It just felt like there were so many events, so many people to have fun with and then gone. Nothing could compare to it.

Last week, we had my sisters wedding. I would have never thought this could happen (my wedding sort of made sense), but after a night full of fun, friday & saturday or activities like rehearsal dinner, getting my daughter prepared, wondering how she'd do with everything, having people gloat on how pretty she was, etc. I woke up Sunday morning thinking it was just slightly hungover (tired), but it did not go away. By Tuesday I knew it was back. I worried about this past weekend as we had nothing special to do. What is it with wedding that do this to me?

Some things I am going through:
- Feel like I have no friends. My wedding was small and my dad was my best man. My sister and husband had a full wedding party, etc. I've always been shy and never that outgoing. This never bothered me until now that I have no close friends
- I used to be fine being on my own, just my wife and I. I'd watch football on my own and other sports as well. We'd watch our TV shows as well. I can barely muster to do this now. I feel like its not enjoyable, have no one to share the experience with, etc.
- Having trouble eating. Normally I can eat easily, but now feels like a hard things to do.
- Look forward to bed time and night in general. Things feel easier.

Hoping someone can explain this, or has any sort of advice at all!

Thanks!