I hear you saying how much you want to help your old friend, and how much these feelings are consuming you, but you are helpless to do anything. you are a very compassionate individual. But you are powerless in this situation. She has already made her wishes known by sending the cops to your house. the best way to help her is to leave her alone. You can pray for her if you do that sort of thing. Otherwise, know that you have done all you can by reaching out with the desire to help. Welcome to psych central. You will get a lot of support here.