greetings, new to this forum. I was diagnosed type one 5 years ago. I was a good junkie and took my trileptal and seroquel for 5 years, then one day I got the notion that I was in control, well most of you know that feeling. well one year later I have sunk to rock bottom. am currently waiting to get into new doctor. anyway even when I was on my meds I had a hard time keeping a job. mind you that I have only been fired from one or two jobs in my life. Ialways seem to find myself fighting to not tell the boss he is a stupid MF and then quit. sounds fun huh. well now I am going through a major depr. episode, don't want to go outside or even talk to my best friends. fortunately I have a wife to help me . anyway am I alone on the hiding from the world? how do others cope with this? How do you force yourself to go to work? dam depression sucks I am not looking forward to xmas.