Possible trigger post!!

I have PSTD. I was raped and then stalked for about 8 months. I lost my job because of it. I lost my apartment because of it. I didn't even tell my own parents til six months later. My brother knew. My family begged me to get help my kids were 12 & 14 at the time. I made the appointment. Long story short that's when I was diagnosed bipolar. I never worked again. I applied for and was approved for ssdi on my first try.

Because of the pstd I was a mess. Always afraid. As my kids got older and my meds were stabilized I would get out some and go to things for them at school chior, graduations but I really had to push myself to go. I was so scared.

My kids are 22 & 24 now. I'm a Grammy to a 3 year old and my newest grand daughter only 3;weeks old. I live w my 78 year old mom. I'm her caregiver. I have the worst social anxiety ever. I only go grocery shopping once a month and Dr appts. When I'm home I am in my room. Like now my mom has her friends here for dinner and I'm hiding out in my room.

I can so relate to everyone of you! Thanks for reading my story.