Planning suicide is serious. If you feel you have exhausted all your avenues, and have reached out for help from your family and got none, and nothing seems to make a difference, TV, music, books, etc seem meaningless or you can't concentrate long enough on any of them. There is always the hospital. As a last resort, Go to ED and let them know how you feel! They will admit you and keep you under observation. You will receive 24/7 attention, meds, counseling. You feel very safe and protected. This will also give a doctor enough time to find what meds will help you best. So you see, you always have options! Don't give up!