the screaming started because i called him four times and he did not answer or say why he didnt pick up. but throughtout the time i was calling he was only texting me. which really confused me and made me feel insecure... i am not trying to excuse it... it was really bad...

i made a huge mistake... i admitted and asked for forgiveness. i started counselling. found a flat. my job is going well. im two weeks i turned things to a positive. the only thing that is missing is him speaking to me.

the last conversation was 10 days ago where he said he needs time before he can meet me. two days after that i admitted my mistakes in the relationship and asked for forgiveness. he never replied... i never said anything to the OD because i am hoping i will be able to explain when we meet...