I have some perspective on this. I was devastated by the ending of my loving relationship with a man while I was in college. I married, had a daughter, lived in an unhappy marriage for 20+ years, then divorced. After that, I dated several men, trying to find that spark I remembered with that special man. But as time has passed, I'm recalling the bad things about the relationship, to an excess. It really was pretty much all bad, and in my mind it was just romantic at the time. Yes, there are songs and moments that can recall it, but as time passes, I realize how lucky I am to have escaped the abusive nature of the relationship. Even until a few years ago, I actually contacted the man. We communicated, for a couple of times during our lives departed. Each time these communications resulted in my feeling bereft and somehow abandoned.
Maybe this is not the case for you. If not, I apologize for sharing this.
At any rate, I have now reached the point of closure, and peace about the way the relationship transpired. Sometimes we idolize these initial romances beyond what they are/were.