My girlfriend was raped by her high school teacher when she was 17. Violently. She then had voluntary sex with him twice-more, by putting herself in the same situation with him. This was approx 8 years ago.

Since the day she told me, I have been struggling with this unmanageable amount of suicidal rage, sexual insecurity, jealousy and hatred for myself.... I don't know what to do. I am unable to articulate to my therapist, sponsor, support network, and family the nature of these intense emotions, so there hasn't been any way for me to resolve them. It hurts on a daily basis. bad. We have a baby on the way. and are very excited. I am convinced that unaddressed, this issue will cause serious problems.
Instead of trying to self-diagnosis here, I will just say that the deepest, darkest, shadowy core of this issue seems to whisper to me "she liked it".
I am familiar with the psychological impacts of rape within our human nature. I am aware that she doesn't deserve to be punished for this. I don't know if I can get over it.... I'm not sure how.

I am being vague intentionally with the hopes that someone can help steer me in the right direction. Any help, is very much appreciated. Thank you. I will be checking this daily.