Thanks everyone... lost_lonely, I hope you feel better soon... I wish I had more to say, I'm just really not very helpful for now.
Thanks Peanut.
Ozzie, I can't focus on anything, and I'm SO anxious, I feel like I'm going to have a breakdown, or a psychotic episode again, I really feel I need to be in the hospital, but I can't risk it with my mom, I have to tough this out, there's no other option.
Kris, thanks. I can't print anything, but I might write out something, I don't know. Maybe notes on things I need to bring up. But I'm afraid to tell her how I'm feeling, that she'll get me put in the hospital, I can't have that happen.

I feel worse than I've ever felt before. I don't want to deal with this. I wish I wasn't so alone, that I had someone to help me along, I feel so isolated and utterly alone, left to myself to fight for anything. I want it to end!

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Matthew 11:28
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.</font color=green> Sounds good...