I had testicular torsion when I was 12 1/2, so since before puberty I have only had one testicle. This has always bothered me, even though I know intellectually it is a redundant system in the first place for this very sort of reason.

And, I am not even dating at this time, I'm definitely past the age when I would even consider fatherhood even if so many other things in my life weren't also telling me no way. So, the rational side of me has always said why do I even worry about it? It would be like sitting and worrying about the next earthquake in China or something else completely removed from my life.

But, emotionally, I have always wanted to know, to just be sure I could father a child if I wanted to.

Is that dumb? Would I look like the world's biggest *** if I actually contacted a fertility specialist and told them what I just wrote here about the situation? And, if by some weird fluke there were an issue, I know I would use that as another excuse to bash myself as worthless, and I struggle with that daily already, so that would be bad.

What do you guys think?