It has been a wretched week. Simple wretched. Problems keep piling on top of one another. People have noticed certain ones. I've even noticed one but I cannot stop it. I don't have the willpower. I don't have the energy.

I've felt weak physically. I've felt weak mentally. I've felt empty emotionally. I feel like I just am.

I think this is probably the worst depressive stage I've been in to date. I've been self destructive and I can't stop. I have, officially, decided to put mental health before dental and as soon as I get that money later this month I'm getting help.

Meanwhile. I just am.