His family doesn't know any of the disorders I have and if they knew or witness them, it could be devastating. I'm not sure how they would react and I don't want them to dislike me. I have been living here for over a year and it makes me manic every so often, generally in the winter when it's freezing here. Right now I'm fine, sad, but fine. I'm sad about not having anything to eat so I had to have cereal again. I have money for food, but I don't have anywhere to put it or anywhere to make it.