You do not sound stupid. You sound hurt and confused.

Your therapist will help you learn to cope. When you have learned how, and have processed what you went to.... you'll hopefully stop feeling like you are crazy, and you won't think that you're a *****.

You weren't a *****. Your father should have never called you that. You aren't an attention ***** for wanting help.

It's probably more imminent because you're actually thinking about things now, instead of just ignoring them. I've been thinking a lot more about my family than I typically do too, since I started.

Again: writing your post was not annoying, you aren't crazy, you're not being an attention *****, you're not stupid, and you're not a *****. Have you told your T that you feel like all of those?