I can relate to what you are referring to...I feel sad later on after I have a glass of wine.

I have never really had a taste for alcohol, per se, but I do love a nice champagne / sparkling wine (I guess because I associate it with feeling happy and celebrations, and it is a treat. All the bubbles, and it is not heavy).

But I also recall not feeling great after a glass or two. Not necessarily physically ill, but emotionally dragging which I think has to do with alcohol, wine being a depressant.

Since I started taking meds (for depression and anx), I do not drink at all because of the possible / potential side effects (I dont want to interfere with the meds doing their job).

When you mentioned not being able to stop...is it because you feel good for the moment? Do you drink to the point of falling asleep or not remembering stuff after a certain point?