I think so to I wanted to get into the one that helped me out but you need a perfect driving record. I got a ticket a few years ago for getting ran off the side of the road in a storm on my way to the store to get a pack of smokes. The police lied in court and I had no witness to back me up, I was panicking when I saw the judge and he looked at me like I was crazy. I get really high anxiety whenever I have to deal with authority figures, they make me tremble with fear.

Good job on the recovery from MDD and alcohol addiction, I'm also alcohol and drug free now, I even quit cigarettes and caffeine. My family doctor convinced me to get clean after several visits, because "alcoholism runs in my family" (and mental illness). Anxiety is probably the reason everybody in my family drinks, it slows them down enough to not feel so anxious. I definitely want to go for my dreams, I enjoy helping people but sadly in the "real world" setting most people with MI don't think they have an illness and refuse help. I like this site because people generally want to get better, everybody in my family besides my aunt has mood and anxiety disorders but refuses help.

I know what you mean about facing your past, our memories are often too good for our own good. I find that writing a journal helps me recall things a lot better because a lot of times my thoughts are racing too fast to keep up. Writing helps me get them down before I lose them. Best of luck to you in your therapy, be sure to make a post about it in the PTSD or psychotherapy subforum and let us know how it went.