I hope things can get better for you soon hun. I've been in your spot many times before, from different circumstances of course. Sometimes I feel so hopeless and suicide does cross my train of thought. The best thing to do is to get out and find close friends to interact with, or even join an online IM chat group of supportive people. Whatever you do, although it may be hard, do not spend too much time alone. When you're in a depressive state I know one of the most appealing things to do is stay in bed and not do anything, but the truth is social isolation can be one of the most dangerous things for people suffering with suicidal thoughts. Find someone who you trust, and ask if you can talk with them, you don't have to bring up suicide if you're uncomfortable, but you can share some of the things you're going through, and perhaps find comfort in that. Keep holding on, I know it's hard, but in time things will get better, and they will get worse. It's all apart of life.