Sounds like Blunemia, Yes that does sound hard not only does all that make you fat but it also can hurt your heart and health. I suggest you talk with your family doctor and decide where to start, you can turn your life around but there is only one person who can, you! Of course you will probably want some help, some programs provide therapy and all that. But very common, kids look at food on commercials and it is usually not good for them but the commercials make it look that way. Don't feel bad, you are aware of it and that is good, please vent whenever you want here on Psych Central! Good luck to you!