First of all your not disgusting. Lots of people get attached to their therapists, it is normal. It is totally understandable that you would have her fill roles in your life as you are lonely. So your doing nothing wrong.

She is clearly a bit uncomfortable about you getting attached to her. She is also pretty unable to maintain proper boundaries. Boundaries are really important! You need to know if it is ok to email, when and if she will reply. She sounds like she cares but is not being very consistent and it sounds like you could really do with some consistency right now.

I think you would attach to a new T and i would hope they would be more specific with their boundaries. If you did get a new T you could tell them how you felt about the old T and ask them how they would react if you did the same. Interesting information you would get then!

You will get through this.