I remember back when I was living in a shared house full of women, one of the main people that looked after everyone asked me to reach up and change a light bulb.. I knew they knew I was cutting myself and I let them see when I reached up to change the bulb. (they knew because I was stupid enough to leave a knife laying about in my room covered in blood) They was actually quite understanding but said to make sure that I keep the knife and cuts clean.. for obvious reasons.

The place at the time I was staying at was a place for people that had problems and were looked after by the equivalent to social workers. (which I haven't had a good experience with throughout my life, being a foster child.. but these people were alright)

I'm quite sure one of the tenants (crystal) that I had quite a significant relationship with had a baby after she left as I saw her near on a year later (I know it's 9 months) at a shopping centre with a baby and it's something I'll never know if it's anything to do with me or not. (Another one of those unknowns I'll never know like if I ever see my parents I'll never know if it's them or not, well until I met them when I was 18)

Anyways, I was never given any medication but I did get appointments with psychiatrists lol.

Although when she left I did end up on drugs (mentioned in another thread loller) and after all that I was then prescribed drugs such as seroxerat (seratonin doodah) and valium for only 2 weeks.

I understand the cutting thing, it was a release to me, it let me feel better, I felt frustration and anger leave me when I cut myself.
I guess you could of at the time called me emo LOL and I suppose I was. Nowadays I have scarres on my arms and two 'important' ones which I cover up with my watch (funnily enough an expensive gold watch).

To be honest at the time I didn't care, whatever was is just is, now I just feel stupid and think there's no point anymore in doing that. But it's been a long time since and I believe existance is better than nothing

Sorry for going on a bit there, I seem to do that alot rofl!
I guess this particular thing was important to me also at the time and I don't mean to come across like I think I know everything because I know I don't really know anything!

I feel for ya sarah, I really do.