I guess. I'm not bipolar, and I really don't have manic episodes, at least not of the type that I have heard true bipolars describe. I do feel better some days than others, more content. Perhaps it's just my perception that I don't deserve to be happy, that I don't deserve to be doing well. So when I am, I start "waiting for the other shoe to drop" which leads to this free floating anxiety I feel. I need to write this thought down in my notebook so I can share it with my T at my next visit. And BTW S4 thanks for being the only one who apparently gives a rat's behind how I feel. You're a sweetie.