I've tried journaling, and it worked for a while... I've had a really hard time figuring out what to write lately, because my mind is so jumbled... I really like the coloring idea... You don't have to figure out what you're trying to say that way...

I am working on finding options with my therapist... It's just taking a while... I know it will probably be another while before I finally find something that works really well, but I feel like I get stuck in this waiting for her to give me another option, but she's really keen on having me try something for a while before I give up on it... I'll get there....

I am actually looking for a song to dance to for a solo this year, and somebody posted on here the song "The Lonely" by Christina Perri... I actually really kind of want to do it, because it expresses so well how I feel each and every night, so with her teaching that dance, I'll still have that to go to when I am feeling lonely, so I won't feel as lonely (hopefully)... Like I'll have that dance, which will automatically have a piece of her in it, and with that dance, I'll have a way to express the feelings I can't explain in words... While it will be stressful to put myself out there that way, I can just assume everybody thinks I'm acting, so it won't be as much pressure... And if it gets too overwhelming, I can change it and go with a different song... Since she's the one who I have gone to with just about all of this, I feel like there's a good chance she'll know how to use this stuff to help me express it without pushing it too far... I don't know if that makes any sense at all