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While we're continuing to look for a decent local psychologist, I thought I'd post over here to see if anyone else has experienced anything similar... Truthfully? It's been extremely unnerving to see something akin to my own manic behaviour from an outside perspective. And I really need some kind of answers so we can figure out where to go from here. So, onto my concern:
Last night, at about 4:30am, my boyfriend woke me up to ask me for an Ativan. He never asks me for anything but he was EXTREMELY out of sorts. Hyperactive, couldn't stop moving, muttering to himself, paranoid & suspicious, kept hearing disembodied running footsteps on the tile around him, giddiness, racing/chaotic thoughts, hypersexuality... I'm pretty sure a good portion of you can relate! Uhm, it took an hour for the pill to get him to sleep but it was slightly disturbing for me throughout. For some history:
He has confirmed Major Depressive Disorder, Panic/Anxiety Disorder, & Anger Management problems. The only time he's had professional help was when it was mandated due to work outbursts & the fallout of being fired from said job. He was prescribed Paxil then Zoloft, Vistaryl, Klonopin, & Seroquel -- though he only took the first three. [The Vistaryl only during a panic attack to get him properly sedated.] They thought his outbursts were the result of a nervous/psychotic breakdown but it was ultimately inconclusive because, while he can be eccentric & creative, he's extremely level-headed & in control.
He wound up having dysphoric-manic reaction to Paxil, which is why he switched. And after some months, he quit the meds cold turkey because he felt he didn't need them anymore. Once he got a new job, he didn't have the same degree of problems.
And now here we are, roughly 3 years after said mental breakdown. He's typically melancholic & stressed out... But over the past few months, he has isolated incidences of mania ONLY at night. He'll start having auditory hallucinations, paranoia, & get really anxious. I'm just at a loss, because I'm worried about this happening in greater frequency. His day was great yesterday; better than most! Which is why it was doubly weird. I could understand if it were a bad day & he snapped, but I don't know what to think. Is he Bipolar? Psychotic depression? Or even a medical cause?
I appreciate anyone who has managed to read the whole thing -- I appreciate the support. I'm not often distressed, so I'm at a complete loss trying to figure this out! I've always been at the opposite end of the caretaking situation. I'm looking up some local psychologists for advice before we jump into psychiatric treatment... Even though I just started taking meds regularly after 4 years of resistance, we'd both prefer to find out the source of this problem before making a decision like that.
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