That's possible, though one is predominate. Although, that could be because I suppress the other one. I was more open to it until I moved away to go to grad school and I was too afraid to see if I could "get away with it". That and my body shape has drastically changed since I moved, so I needed new clothes. And since I seem to be more interested in guys, I just thought that I had to be more effeminate and so I started wearing mostly junior's clothes/clothes that I had when I was younger and dressed more like a girl. That hasn't worked to attract anybody though...also doesn't help that I don't like masculine guys which eliminates the vast majority of straight guys. And I don't know any bi guys or non-binary gendered people (am I saying that correctly?).

Anyway, I'm caught between not really knowing what exactly I want because I'm too afraid to explore. I have finally found a place where I'm not a weirdo and where I'm treated with respect for the most part...I really don't want to jeopardize that. I also don't want to confuse other people until I have a definite idea what/who I am. Otherwise, they won't take me seriously and I wouldn't blame them.

I've tried to join different GLBT groups, but I always feel like I don't belong. Like I'm not really one of them—like I'm not "gay" enough. And I still go by my birth gender.