Not sure if this is triggering or not, but wanted to be safe.

Wow, had a really full weekend, and for the most part was only here sporadically. Sunday, though, was pretty tough. As I mentioned before, my wife and I bought a new home and moved in early July. Well, Sunday was our house warming party for our families.

At its height, there were probably about 30 or 40 people here, and since my wife dubbed me as a host on FB, I felt that I had to perform. I don't do very well in crowds, so I manned the grill, and made sure that I was busy most of the time by only cooking about 4 or 5 burgers at a time. Still, folks wanted my time, either to tell me what a nice house it was, or other small talk (I don't do small talk well, either). I manned up, put everything that I was feeling aside, and did my best to stay in control. Overall, I didn't do too badly. I was a little rushed sometimes, both in conversation and in mannerisms, but didn't have a "freak out" moment.

Today, I got up, had a few cups of coffee, did ok for a few hours, even did a few loads of laundry. Then it hit me. I fell into a deep, low funk. It started shortly after noon, and lasted until about eight o'clock Monday evening. It was terrible. I felt trapped within myself, and couldn't find the way out. I was suddenly scared, sad, anxious, and despondent. Nothing could break me out of this state. Then, as quickly as it started, it lifted. I still don't understand this. I don't recall this happening before this weekend, but I just may not have noticed it.

I guess I just wanted to say hello. I also really wanted to know, that if this is a new development for me, if it's something to expect. If any of you have experienced this quick "funk" episode.