I'm sorry you're feeling so sad and lonely, but please do take the time to remember that people aren't capable of filling voids. Voids need to be addressed and worked through, find the root, find the solution.
The moment you expect someone to fill a void you set them up for failure and repeat the cycle of misery within yourself.

I do hope you are feeling better soon, financial crap is one I find myself buried in regularly so I empathize