Hang in there stephybee, and I know it's not much comfort, but many of us feel as you do. In the meantime, there are small things that still bring joy in life, some are universal, while some are different for different people. Whether, it's the feel of the water of the shower beating down on you, the warmth of the sun, a special treat to heat, or someone smiling at you, it's all there, still, for the enjoyment. Tho, when we are depressed, it's hard to see all this. Feel free to reach on to the various forums, there are some directly related to your situation. Sticky notes should help you with navigation. The very best!