Happieness doesn't come in the mail.
Happiness is not something someone can give you.
It can't be bought or sold as a product.
Maybe right now you aren't able to access it.
It is a chemical response in your brain based on how you feel in your environment.
For people who have suffered a lot, sometimes happiness bring about anxiety, fear,and is certainly not comfortable. Try to work on balancing emotions.
There are many tools to manage and therapy may be needed, but you can overcome this.
Hugs,
Happiedasiy