thanks granite ... this particular post I was trying to write earlier was more just wanting insight on something; then wondering if it would be better addressed with my T; then wondering if i would even do that ... anxiety getting in the way at every turn it seems i'm really glad sharing here has helped you with sharing in T

thanks for sharing your experiences rhi, granite and cantexplain

teal, do you think you will try writing and sharing your post again or leave it now?