no one really understands, I feel so alone, my ex and his girlfriend will not stop backstabbing me. Every week, its like he did what?????? Im so miserable im crying all the time. My kids come home all upset from their visit with him. My attorney isn't doing her job. The friend of court said there done with us. I cant get out of my head. I relive every moment over and over. If not going through it one time, second time would hurt less. I am falling apart. I keep trying to change my thinking, Im trying to pray again. BAM he has me wanting to go back to my bed and just stay there. Im tired of being strong, Im tired of holding my head up high. IM AM SO TIRED OF HURTING!!!!!!! Im tired of feeling lonely, everyone is sick of listening to me, its been 3 yrs, they cant believe he is still doing this. I don't want to live my LIFE this way....... I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do..... Im hurting