It's only day 5 of school and i already ran out of patience for one of my students. every day it's been an extended interaction that included leaving the building and destroying school property. today he ripped down my welcome posters outside my door and shredded them. mind you, this kid is in 12th grade! he throws temper tantrums like my two year old does. and i know he is acting out because he wants to test the new staff and he's upset because of all the horrible things his mother has done to him in the past but my empathy has an end point and i'm just about there. i'm really tired of my stuff getting destroyed. i spend a lot of time trying to make my classroom look inviting and he ruins it in five minutes.

i know, i know, this is what i signed up for, but it's still frustrating. hence why i'm venting here. and of course once again i get two days' notice for an IEP being due, which takes about an hour straight through but since I can never sit straight through it'll probably take me all day. AND these godforsaken lesson plans take me all freaking week to write now so i'm way behind, it being already wednesday tomorrow and all. i'm working on them now so maybe i can have a chance to breathe.

now because of this kid i've got to redo my seating arrangement and laminate all the names so he can't rip them up anymore. I'm going to laminate EVERYTHING i can possibly laminate so he can't mess my stuff up. I'm also going to buy my fall decorations at the dollar store so if he does manage to mutilate them at least i won't have invested too much money in them!

The certificate coordinator is also bothering me about going back to school and there's no way i can handle school and the job right now. i know i have to in order to keep my position but i just can't right now. i'm hoping by january i'll have a few months of stability under my belt and maybe i'll be able to handle an online course. i did tell her that. i think she's aware of my situation thanks to the rumors that circulated (even though i never confirmed them).

BUT on the bright side all of my other students are excellent and i believe it will be a great year if i just don't let the one student ruin my day.

thanks for listening as always.