Omg this is so me!!! Especially the "What if I'm faking it" part!!! What if I don't have OCD but I'm just showing symptoms because I've read about it a lot (but I spent so much time researching this and just thinking about this it has to be OCD right??? Right??? Right???) I also follow rules very strictly. I went for a diagnosis two weeks ago (third week of waiting now) and I'm just so afraid that they think I'm just imagining things or am just lying to them about how severe my symptoms are or they don't believe me and why haven't they replied yet? It's been 3 weeks!!! Are they deciding whether I'm lying or am telling the truth??? Why won't anyone believe that I might have OCD??? Is this really just me trying to get attention??? Am I actually consciously wanting to do this??? Or can I really not help doing all these things??? Am I really obsessively thinking about all these or do I consciously want to think these things??? Are they intrusive thoughts or not???