Sometimes for me it's like this reoccurring thought that goes on in my head over and over again. I don't have to be depressed to feel suicidal. It's like this dark need in my mind that wants it repeatedly.

I can be very stable but it's always there. For me, it's something that I learn to ignore. It slowly loses power, but for me it's always there.
Maybe it's something like that?

Depression and suicide may be linked but they aren't always.

I wish you the best!

Lillyleaf