so today is even worse then last night... I feel like I'm going to have a panic attack. My hearts pumping faster, my minds racing more, i feel like uneasy and shaky.

I don't think I can afford healthcare or anything like that right now. I think a therapist or a psychiatrist would be good for me though. I dont know. I guess after we pay our bills next month and figure out if we're going to have any extra money I can look into something. Maybe they have low income type therapists?

I'm thinking that maybe playing this online game is causing some of my problems so I'm gunna stop playing that and sorta stop doing some things I think might just be contributing to making me feel like this. Just spend more time with my son (he's 10 months) and less time with anything else. I'm also looking for some sort of job to keep me busy on the weekends.

Okay, i'm able to breath again and feel okay. I appreciate how welcoming you all are on this site. It's only been a day and I feel better to have somewhere to come to talk a little. Course it would be nice to have family or something understand my problem. Now i'm mumbling. So thanks for everyones input!