I was at a seminar on suicide prevention last year through work. They were talking about how it's a cry for help and that it should be given.... which sort of annoys me. When I've been suicidal, no, I don't want help - it's when I've finally decided to help myself out. (stupid yes, but it's how my brain works!)

At one point they wanted input from everyone there about why some people might not disclose, or why people would choose that route. A lot of people there sort of looked at me funny when I said "Sometimes it's not about wanting to make things better for yourself. You've given up on that and sometimes you just think it's the best solution for everyone else, because you view yourself as the problem. So you wouldn't tell anyone because that would be making you even more of a problem."

That's how it's been for me.... but it was rather triggering to see how many people there truly didn't get it, at all. I sorta felt like I'd outed myself.