Your t is obviously a believer in glassers theory that we bring all illnesses on ourselves, not consciously but subconsciously. Our lifestyles reflect our health.
I believe some of this is true, if we under a lot of stress it has to affect our body somehow or if we are depressed all these hidden emotions we have tucked away inside come out in the form of illness.
It is a harsh theory and not very kind way if looking at things but it is one that makes sense.
As for your house being dirty, do you feel the same about your body?
I ask because a lot if CSA survivors, myself included often feel dirty inside because of the shame associated with our past. I have two showers a day and it's not enough. I wonder is this cleaning of your house a way of trying to feel in control of the feelings! Correct me if I am wrong recto and of course only you know what is happening with you and only you can decide what is best x