Motivation isn't about ideas, it's more about beliefs. You could probably look in your newspaper or online for ideas of things to do. You're not dumb. But your beliefs are that they wouldn't be worth the effort - that's like what my beliefs are, that I "inherited" from my wonderful family. Like nobody will be interested in me. Nobody there will be worth knowing anyway. So why bother. Such beliefs kept me home and safe, where they could keep an eye on me. I don't know exactly what your folks did. But t and transference enters in by getting us to have a safe and satisfying relationship outside the home, first with t, and then to fly out of that nest.