That sounds so rough! I'm sorry that happened Congrats on not going for drugs, (I know you say you had no choice, but still it's an achievement! )

Anger does suck, luckily my anger isn't too extreme and I tend to manage it, well I target it on myself rather than others mostly. Hows that waiting list going for a T? That anger needs to be one of your priorities by the sound of it, and how to handle it

You may have said awful things, and he hurt you, but one thing that will help will probably be to apologise and explain calmly why you were upset rather than stewing on it. Instead of binging you could take your pups for a nice brisk walk. I find walking with loud music with headphones helps me a lot when I get to angry. I just walk and walk until I am calm again.

Here for you though