How do you find motivation to do certain things? Things that you have to like go to school or go to work?

How do you deal with loneliness while maintaining positive company?

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Right now for me I feel like I'm struggling and this seems to happen every so many days a week or every other week, or for a week at a time. It changes. I have days where I feel fine.

Today I just feel really low. I was feeling pretty good yesterday, and I ended up sleeping in very late because after work I just got so incredibly tired that I actually took a nap under a tree before getting home.

I've been coping with feeling loneliness for about a year now and it's not something I'm accustomed to. I rarely, if ever, felt actual loneliness before I turned 18. Now I feel it just about every day, but I really like being alone. I feel that some of it has to do with the fact that I can't plan my social interactions. I don't get a choice in how much time or when I have to talk to other people anymore so it's difficult to settle into waking up to an empty house or waking up to people being home.

I also have school work and my motivation is what sets me off most. If I try to get into the school work regardless of how I'm feeling I start getting irritable, and I start getting S.H. urges or negative thoughts get worse no matter what I tell myself until I start freaking out. Trouble focusing, or even when I get focus I cannot retain the information...

I just feel like a mess. I have an arsenal of coping mechanisms but I'm frustrated because I feel like I would spend the whole day doing things to make myself feel better when I really need to spend the day doing my school work or doing house chores. I don't really have the means to put on loud music to help with that either.

What are some helpful thoughts, mindsets, or coping strategies you might suggest?