Granite...

trust is so hard for me too. I like Soup Dragon was starting to trust T but any sudden moves (cancelling appts, changes in behavior) and I couldn't take it... my fear of realizing I was letting xT get too close is why I quit T.

I think its something no one can tell you how it will work...it is something you need to experience... someone told me here on PC... that when it gets hard you shouldn't run away you need to lean in... go towards the ackward and painful... I just couldn't endure it.

But I know you are stronger than I am.