Patience is a hard thing to have but hold on and give the medicines a chance to kick in. It does get better, you can feel better, don't settle for kind of ok, work with your dr to get you where you feel good, can take care of activities of daily living with no problems and like doing things again. There's lots of medicines so if one doesn't work a different one might. Also remember bipolar is cyclical so there will always be ups and dips, we just work really hard to make them small and short lived.