I can relate to these problems, the blood pressure is extremely disturbing. I think you should see a doctor about that, get some medication for it. I have been considering asking my pdoc for some medication for high blood pressure lately, I don't know if he can prescribe that stuff. But I think it would save me from some of the negative physical consequences of being triggered (high blood pressure and all the problems that go with it). You can always put jobs on your resume to places that are no longer in business, then the employer can't call anybody. One of my friends did this because she had no experience and she got hired in quickly. I'm sorry to hear you are having such a hard time coping right now guy

I hope things start looking better for you soon! I also struggle with an intense rage lately, I also feel panicky about my job situation. Like the "walls are closing in" on me sometimes. I am confused, who are you filing complaints about, your old T or your former employer? What happened?