I am glad to hear you feel supported here. I know it can feel "lonely" when struggling with "complex PTSD" but you are really "not alone" with this challenge, a lot of "good people are challenged by it". You just have not had a way of connecting with them until you found PC which is "one place" people who are struggling come and interact.

I actually had a customer come out to my farm one day that is a "neuro psychiatrist"
and she told me that most people who struggle with PTSD do not talk about it or admit it to others.

Right now they are studying how "emotions" affect the brain, there still much we do not know and are "learning" about the brain. HealingNSuffering is right about medications, they are still "trying" different medications to see what ones are more "helpful" to PTSD sufferers. So have an open mind when you are considering what may help you the best.

I will say however, that "therapy" is often found to be the "most" beneficial when working through PTSD. The fact that you "feel better" with the support you have gotten here is proof that having support, someone who actually hears you and can validate you" is "helping you" a lot. It was a life saver for me too, that is why I do my best to offer my support here as well as whatever I am learning as I too am working through complex PTSD.

I began to develop PTSD back in 2007, I had no idea what it meant, like you I was misdiagnosed too and I got a lot worse and I was "very lonely and frightened" by it.
It took me a "while" before I found the right therapist too, and it sure has been a challenging journey. I have learned "so much" and knowing how "scary" it is, I do my best to share what I have learned in my healing.

You are going to have those challenging "down days" but always remember these are "waves" that come forward and "they "do" pass. It is so much better when you learn how to be "patient" with yourself and after a while you will slowly get to a point where these down days are "less and less" because you will understand yourself better. I can't say enough to make sure you "catch" yourself and stop yourself when you begin to "self criticize" and "don't let yourself feed into "self blaming". I have noticed that you have done that at times. Be "kinder" with self, the healing goes "smoother" that way ok?

(((Hugs)))
OE